fat, disgusting, dead.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i can’t believe i have let myself get this fat. i cannot believe i am actually this size. i have never in my life been this huge. i can’t be this size. i can’t be this fat. aside from the fact that nothing i own fits me, and that i am uncomfortable in every position, i just can’t be this fat. i can’t live like this. and the only way i can think of to fix it is to die. i can’t live this way, i have to find a way to kill myself because i can’t live this way.
i can’t go on another diet. they don’t work. diets are the reason that i am this size.
but i don’t know how to lose this weight. i try to not eat, i try to eat only healthy things, but no matter what i do, i wind up bingeing. i am disgusting. i can’t stand myself. i can’t stand looking at myself. i can’t stand being in the same room with myself.
i just want to fucking die!
i can’t go on another diet. they don’t work. diets are the reason that i am this size.
but i don’t know how to lose this weight. i try to not eat, i try to eat only healthy things, but no matter what i do, i wind up bingeing. i am disgusting. i can’t stand myself. i can’t stand looking at myself. i can’t stand being in the same room with myself.
i just want to fucking die!
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