nothing more to say.

i don’t know what to do. i don’t know if i should quit therapy or not. i don’t want to get better. i want to die. and if i don’t want to get better, what’s the point of going to therapy? i should just quit and then get on with the business of dying. i don’t understand what is stopping me. i don’t understand why i can’t just walk away from therapy and from sandra. i don’t understand why that is so hard to do.

i don’t really have anything more to say. i’m all out of words right now.

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