depression 101.
Monday, October 20, 2008
this is what depression is like:
- intense shame
- feeling lethargic all the time
- the inability to look people in the eye
- the inability to express myself verbally
- having to force everything
- sleeping too much but never feeling rested
- not being able to decide
- not being able to enjoy
- body aches
- feeling like you are bringing everyone down
- being scared no one likes you
- losing long term friendships
- isolation
- having to put on an act just to go to work, which is exhausting
- eating out of control
- listlessness
- racing thoughts
- muddled thinking
- hating yourself all the time
- being sure that others hate you too
- ruining relationships
- feeling separate from the world
- not being able to function
- discomfort - both physical and mental
- confusion
- stubbornness
- feeling like a small child
- needing my mommy, but not getting my needs met
- inability to function
- losing yourself
- losing others
- feeling afraid
- uncertainty
- thinking about death and dying all the time, not being able to turn it off, but not being able to kill myself
- the inability to express my feelings
- feeling stunted
- wanting to die
- feeling like you can’t move
- disinterest
- anger, sometimes rage
- frustration with self and others
- endlessness
- crying all the time
- inability to control emotions
- not caring anymore
- being futureless
- regrets
- reliving painful memories over and over again
- feeling overwhelmed
- feeling like you are slowly burning to death but can do nothing to stop it
- suffocation
- fear
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- intense shame
- feeling lethargic all the time
- the inability to look people in the eye
- the inability to express myself verbally
- having to force everything
- sleeping too much but never feeling rested
- not being able to decide
- not being able to enjoy
- body aches
- feeling like you are bringing everyone down
- being scared no one likes you
- losing long term friendships
- isolation
- having to put on an act just to go to work, which is exhausting
- eating out of control
- listlessness
- racing thoughts
- muddled thinking
- hating yourself all the time
- being sure that others hate you too
- ruining relationships
- feeling separate from the world
- not being able to function
- discomfort - both physical and mental
- confusion
- stubbornness
- feeling like a small child
- needing my mommy, but not getting my needs met
- inability to function
- losing yourself
- losing others
- feeling afraid
- uncertainty
- thinking about death and dying all the time, not being able to turn it off, but not being able to kill myself
- the inability to express my feelings
- feeling stunted
- wanting to die
- feeling like you can’t move
- disinterest
- anger, sometimes rage
- frustration with self and others
- endlessness
- crying all the time
- inability to control emotions
- not caring anymore
- being futureless
- regrets
- reliving painful memories over and over again
- feeling overwhelmed
- feeling like you are slowly burning to death but can do nothing to stop it
- suffocation
- fear
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