stuff.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
nothing really to say. today at work, some kid at the genius bar told me that i look like miss piggy’s mother.
i’ve had a pretty severe earache for the past two days. no urgent care is opened on the weekend so i have nowhere to go to get any relief.
my parents are in grass valley this weekend. something at my aunt and uncle’s house. they are less than 2 hours away, but they won’t come see me. of course, my dad has been doing work in the city on a pretty regular basis and he hasn’t come to see me once since he’s been coming up here. less than 15 minutes away really. they are usually 8 hours away, but whatever. i don’t know why i’m surprised. they don’t want me, they never have.
i haven’t talked to or texted sandra in over 5 days. my parents are going to probably stop paying for therapy, so i have to get used to the idea that i won’t have sandra anymore, because if she’s not getting paid, she’s not going to be talking to me or checking in on me or anything like that.
alone.
alone and fat and disgusting.
no festival. nothing to look forward to. no one. just me.
feeling really alone and really, well, just done. it won’t be long, i can feel it.
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